"I have not found myself with this kind of open-ended solitary time since childhood when I used to disappear for hours into the woods behind our house, drifting aimlessly along the trails, just to see what I could see, just to find what I could find."
"After years of finding a sense of purpose and fulfillment in my role as an always productive, always available mother ... school volunteer, neighbor and friend, I sense life calling me now to a new place, a way of being in which I can no longer define myself by what I do, who needs me, or how much I accomplish in the course of the day." ~Katrina Kenison, The Gift of an Ordinary Day
Everything that made me - me - is no longer part of my life on a day to day basis. The time of homeschooling, juggling finances to pay for debate and swimming, training them up in the way they should go, visiting with friends, meeting for coffee, laughing and maybe sometimes crying, sharing a history of years with people...gone...just like that. I'm left kind of wandering through the days seeing what I can see, finding what I can find and feeling a little aimless along the way. I feel like I'm waiting for God to push the reset button on my life so I can begin the second phase of my years, but maybe this is all there is to this second phase. I hope to find joy and contentment in the gift of an ordinary day.
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